The Canopy of Love

OTIA sucks!!!!!
nothing else can describe it better than this word.
i don't know, but now when i am looking at the notes, HRM is easier in context to understand.

attending my sister's graduation ceremony tomorrow and it is early in the morning!!
lucky for me, i do not need to drive.
my dad is goin.
so, i can just study in the jams.
plus, we will be there freaky early as my sister needs to arrive at 8.15am while the ceremony starts at 9.30am.
i have more than an hour to study.
so happy that the twins have graduated from poly with good results.
happy that they did what i could not.
glad for them.

2 more papers, 3 more days.
just 3 more days and the hellish days are over.
JUST 3 MORE DAYS!!!!!

baby Christy is reaching a month old soon.
in perfect time, my papers will have just ended.

going to Genting on the 23rd.
perfect getaway.
can hardly wait.

then, comes Jo's birthday celebration.
UNIVERSAL STUDIOS!!!!!
i am coming!!!!

followed by Rachel and KK's wedding in July.
so happy for her.
lots to do.
lots to plan.

alas, my Hong Kong trip!!
been looking forward for it since 2 years ago!
at last, it is finalised!!

I am no geek that sits in front of the computer all day.
I am no seeker that needs all attention from friends.
I am no lover who goes around making new friends.








I just am a traveller who meets new people around the world.
I just am an adventurer who sink into treacherous situations.
I just am a giver who wants to care for the Earth.







Can I.

He who lost it gains affection.
He who gains it creates attention.
He who gave it prove that love exists.















Me, who gave it, proves that love do not exist.
After all the giving, no love came back.






"What is the big deal? Just words. Just comments."
"Just ignore. Just avoid. Just hack care."






It is my family.
My only love.
But. Who knows?















Can I stop giving.

Pleasant, pleasant surprise.
Richard got us 2 tickets for Chicago, the Musical.
Well, not exactly as entertaining as CATS, but Chicago is similar.
As in the way the story is portrayed.
Just love the fact that we are there together.

Exams in like 10 days I suppose?
Jorene is a nutcase now.
She is twittering away while studying and well, I personally think that she is going crazy.
Poor girl.
She is like the hardest-working girl I have ever known.
Sure do hope all these pass well for her and all of us.

Richard's mom is starting chemotherapy in 4 days.
She will be hospitalised for the first session.
Lucky for her, she will not have to go through the 6 hours, torturous pain.
Just 90 minutes at most.
Though it is still bad, but, in the very least, we also know that the cancerous cells are stabilized for the time being.
Hope all will go on fine for her.

*Pray* Nothing goes wrong for all of us.
*Pray* Compications will be soon resolved.

People change, things change.

When I was young, I always thought of having the perfect family in a perfect little house.
How about now?

How much have things change that made me cry so much?
How much has people change that made others ponder about the justice of their actions?

Lately, thoughts about leaving is pouring into me.
Leaving Singapore.
Leaving all unhappiness.
Who knows whether I will do well out in the wild?
No one knows till I have tried.

If I were to leave, will I ever come back?


If I were to leave, I will leave quietly.

People always say, ' When life gets tough, the going gets tougher. '
But, how many people can truly do it and get it all over?

I have put another student down today.
Which means that I am down with another $240.
That is almost half of what I am earning.
I have to look for another student.

My family is giving me all the troubles they can.
I want to avoid everything.
I want to just leave the house and if possible, never come back in the near future.
Leaving Singapore is looking so good now, trust me, it never look so pretty before.
But I have to hang on.
For what?
My studies, my boyfriend, my friends, my dog.
Nothing else seems as important at this moment.

My family?
They have always been in the centre of my world.
Now, it seems that 'no longer' look so good.
All the troubles are from them.
All.
I did whatever I can in the house.
I did up the housework.
I did up the dog.
It is yet, still not enough.
What is enough?

I am so tired.
I can just sleep forever.

When you want something badly, it will never come true.

When all is down and lost, look beside you and you'll find all you need.

It had been a great Christmas.
Had a good dinner with some dears on 22nd Dec @ CineLeisure.
Then, went for pool.
Took cab home and slept.
Was so tired from all the laughings and gigglings.
All the playing arounds.
But, I am happy.

24th December, went out with Rachel and Kk with dar dar.
Took the car @ Changi Airport and had lunch there.
Went for dinner @ Botanic Gardens.
So romantic.
Had a little outside time with Rach because she is sick.
Fever.
A terrible little pest.
Great lightings at the garden.
Never knew that before.
Will definitely make it a point to return next year.
Had some great movies.
Laughters and tears.

Met dar dar's friends later in the night.
They seem great though we were there only for a little while.
Nice people.
Hope to see them soon.

Assignment up on tuesday.
Class on tuesday.
Now it is again, time to stress myself out.

I think I really need somewhere to thrash things out. 
Livejournal seems to be one of the more feasible way out.
The last post was on September. 
One of the more peaceful, fun-loving month.

So much happened.
With a friend, with my dears.

With a friend.
I have always treated her as a small little sister. 
You know the feeling we'll sometimes tend to have?
How we look at people younger than us as little sisters?
That was how I look at her.
Yet, she turned from me.
She betrayed me.
Perhaps to alot of people, betrayal is a harsh word to be used.
But, it is till now, that I realise whatever I said actually made no point to her.
Nothing at all.
If that is the case, how much more could you have expected  me to feel?
I have no idea.

My dears.
It has been a year since dar dar and I have got together.
How time flies.
Scary. Sweet. Unfathomable.
But, who cares?
As long as we are happy.

Rachel is going strong.
Regardless of whatever happened, she is still standing.
I am so proud of her.
I know that I will always be here when she looks to her right.
I know I will always be here when she tries to give up.
I know she will always try her best to hold on.

Jorene.
She is trying to free herself from all her burdens from these few months.
She is doing well.
At least, she is not the only one going through all these.
I am too.
We are able to give each other comfort and support.

Ian is in Boys' Home.
He says he is doing well.
But how well can he be?
Being locked up behind bars and monitored by 2 CCTVs.
I will never do well.
I will never be ok.
But, we will always be here for him.
I am waiting for the day he comes out and says "Hi, Mei Ping."

I was reminded by something laughable and now, I just have to post it up.

About 2 weeks ago, I had a great date with Rachel and was updated the most ridiculous news ever.

Remember my previous post on someone called Amy and she could not grow out of talking about me?

Well, now its something about her.


She spoke bad of me quite a few years ago causing me to lose friends.
She spoke bad of me last year almost causing me to lose another friend.
What else could she really do right?
Well, I was just informed that her boyfriend is not doing well at all.
Plus, she is totally jobless.
With a MDIS degree in hospitality, seriously, I have no idea how much is the demand in the market in that field with that degree. (this is totally not directed at MDIS. It is the economy situation I am talking about right now.)
I was just informed that her boyfriend is working as a salesman in Royal Sporting House at Hougang Mall.
Apparently, he could not do well at all.
Thinking of how she actually spoke bad of me, I think that she should be helping him upgrade instead.
Why use the time and effort to persuade people to think like you do?
You could be upgrading your boyfriend instead.

Thinking back, she use to say that I am a flirt and would not settle down.
All because she has a steady boyfriend and had been going on since 17 till now.
But, now what?
I have a steady boyfriend who is doing so well that I need not worry and, we have only been together for approximately 7 months.
WAKE UP!!!!


Mei Bing, another girl in her pack.
She is a innocent girl whom I actually think well of.
Surprisingly, she gave birth to a boy last year and now, the boy is already 1+.
Unexpected but, congratulations.